August 2011
2 posts
Is it even possible
that as I’m getting older, I get wiser, but I don’t think I ever get more responsible? I mean, I take responsibility for my actions. I’m not blaming anyone for them, but I think I’ve made more drunken mistakes in the last year than I did in my 21st year of life. Ugh.
Hmmm…
May 2011
3 posts
Drinking wine and watching movies by candlelight in my bathrobe. Grey skies and rain outside. Perfect.
Double whiskey. Cover letters.
Last night of living in my apartment alone before little sis moves in.
I should probably have a threesome or something. Go out with a bang.
April 2011
4 posts
Oh man
There’s really nothing like having to take Plan B the same week you find out that two of your childhood friends got engaged that makes you start questioning the decisions you’ve made in life.
“I just wanna lie down, take my crazy brains and lie down, it will be okay…”
August 2010
5 posts
I wish
That I could block certain people’s phone numbers from calling me. It would just really cause me a lot less emotional distress, I just can’t not answer some numbers even though I know it will be bad news.
msjess...
Doesn’t understand the word NO, or the word STOP, or the word RULES. Good thing I’m a girl, and not a guy. I’d be in jail.
On a date with myself. At Thai Lagoon. It’s one of those nights when I love this beautiful city so much, there is an element of magic between myself and it, and I’m just soaking it all in. God their Pad Thai is face melting.
And so… I’m in Pilsen. Doing naughty things as usual. Really, what is it with me and Pilsen? There’s something about everything that goes on down there that really makes me feel like no one is judging me and I can, and then do, whatever the hell I want. Now I am sitting in the backseat of a car traveling down the highway past this beautiful beast of a city. Listening to some song that keeps...
July 2010
2 posts
Howw....
Is it that after months of looking, everywhere, sort of desperately, all of a sudden there are bunches of guys around, and they are interested in ME? I feel like I’m 15 again, and just got my braces off.
“Feast. Or. Famine.”
June 2010
12 posts
“Life’s not a bitch. Life is a beautiful woman
You only call her a bitch...”
– Aesop Rock
“Well my next girl, will be nothin like my, ex girl, that was a painful dance,...”
– Black Keys, yeah pretty much their whole album is just made to be the soundtrack to your sins.
“Well you wanted, it all, but I give you, give you none, oh, I’m not the...”
– The Black Keys
I know it's totally fucked...
But occasionally I’d rather have a few drinks by myself than with anyone else. I think it’s the extreme introversion about me that most people other than my sister, and maybe my closest friends know about me. It never starts out, oh, I will drink a bottle of wine by myself tonight, but about every six months, that, just, happens.
P. S.
I’ve started dreaming in Barcelona.
I know that sounds ridiculous, but I’ve had dreams everyday for the last week and they’ve all taken place in Barcelona.
Sometimes I get scared that the happiest I’ve ever been has already happened. And then I have a summer like this…
I just want everything all at once. I want to be everyone. I want to do everything. I want to see from every perspective.
R guys assholes/idiots or are they just nervous/insecure? I’m so tired of asking this question.
I think I’m going to go back to school to study the differences in psychology/sociology between the U.S. and Europe. The people there seem to be enjoying life wayyyy more than we do, and I think a lot of my own psychological hangups come from our culture of work work work, achieve achieve achieve, plan plan plan, and dont even THINK about taking a break or a NAP god forbid, oh, and while...
On the beach. Topless. Smoking a cigarette. Oh yes I am certainly in Europe now.
Love=beauty=love=beauty. This place. Barcelona. Is too much. Is tooo much. Es buena. Baila y besos.
May 2010
12 posts
“Big ups, to all the carbonated hiccups”
– Slug
Oh god
I’m becoming my grandmother.
I totally asked someone tonight TWICE if I knew them because I thought they went to my college. The second time I asked the guy asked me if he was time travelling. Had that conversation not just happened half an hour ago? Yes. Yes it had. Alzheimer’s is going to be a breeze once I get it.
You know who would have played this for me because he knew I loved it, and because he knew it made me melt: James. James would have. He would have made out with me for hours to this song. Oh, I’m sorry. No, I’m not over it. Am I workin real hard to get over it? And to be a better girlfriend to any future boyfriends who I might treat the same? Yeah. I realize that I’m pretty...
Hold up, lemme just go have a cigarette, and then I need to punch some stuff, then I should be all ready to make that decision.
Sometimes staying in on a Friday is the best, and you get to just hang out and nobody gets to tell you what to do so you do whatever the hell you want.
And then some Friday nights at home are crushingly lonely.
I had some brand new shoes. They were all red, but they gave me the blues. And their runnin. Away. They left me a letter.
It’s just how you told me it’d be, it’s nothin’. Nothin’, nothin’, nothin’, at all.
I’ve decided to buy myself a Vespa for my thirtieth birthday. I’m gonna make getting older wayyyy more fun than most people do. You think I’m having fun right now?! Just WAIT and see what kinda shit I’m up to in my forties.
“You wouldn’t care so much about what people thought of you, if you only...”
– Grandpa Ned, although that probably wasn’t an original
“If you’re gonna be bad, you might as well be really bad”
– My mom
I was watching a movie today that made reference to the fact that French people are pretty open and ok about sex, and that they don’t see the problem with being friends with an ex after they’ve broken up. It always makes me feel better when I find a group that sees things similarly to my own beliefs. I wish that the French would just adopt me already.
“drunk girls know that love is an astronaut. It comes back, but it’s never...”
– LCD Soundsystem
April 2010
13 posts
“I wouldn’t trade one stupid decision, for another five years of life”
– James Murphy, LCD Soundsystem
I want a boyfriend I want a boyfriend I want a boyfriend so why am I SO FUCKING SCARED of commitment?
You've never needed anyone for so long.
Wait, for the day you come home from the lonely park Look, for the girl who has put up with all of your sh!t You've never needed anyone for so long You look in the bed you've been gone for too long To put in the time, but it's too late to make it strong And all I want is your pity Oh all I want are your bitter tears Yeah, all I want is your pity At least all I want are your bitter tears All I want...
You know what's great?
When a guy buys you a cupcake and comes over and asks your name because he’s seen you around. And he doesn’t act creepy about it AT ALL. That’s fucking style right there, that’s class, that’s what men should be doing always. Every fucking day. And he was just doing it to be nice!
And you know what? I think if the babes felt more appreciated and special having...
It's too late to make it strong
There's thieves among us, painting the wall With all kinds of lies, the lies I never told at all What's in my pocket? You never knew You didn’t know me well, so well as I knew you CHORUS And I know and you know too That love like ours is terrible news But that won't stop me crying No, that won't stop me crying over you I'm not a prophet, old love is in me New love just seeps right in and makes me...
Hah
I got kicked in the face tonight. Yep. That happened. My mouth is still bleeding, and that did not keep me from drinking a pbr the offender decided to buy me even though it stung a little bit.
In which we keep posting She and Him lyrics that...
Talkin’ on the phone, and watchin’ Cribs He doesn’t know what kinda guy he is. He’s got a gold plated ceiling in the TV show, A broken heart and he doesn’t even know. He’s glad to see you Yes, he’s glad to see you